Posted in January 2011

Have you got the receipt?

Like every year, Christmas in my household is anti-climatic. After weeks of fussing and fawning, it’s over within a matter of moments.

I accompanied my mum to do the ‘Christmas food run’ at 1am the night before and witnessed grown men and women piling pints upon pints of milk and stacking loaves of bread into their trolleys as if the approaching seasonal period was signalling an Armageddon.

For the first time in my adult life, I was unemployed over the festive season and it really dented my ego. Fortunately, I bought some gifts for my family whilst I was in my PTJ, but the guilt over not being able to lavish them with more gifts was a disappointment.

With one parent always working on Christmas Day, growing up, it was never a big deal; get up, eat, TV, then save the best for Boxing Day, but this year, we were all at home, together.

And in typical black fashion, there was an abundance of bickering, we ate WAY too late and we ate WAY too much, we argued over the washing up, tussled for the remote, fought over who opened what….
 

It’s true that when you get older, you realise that Christmas is all about the kids; the gross commercialism has stripped the season of its true meaning.

And after being the materialised, westernised, African offspring for so long, I finally got it. 

I may not have a job or bags of disposable income at the moment; and I certainly wasn’t able to fulfil the long tradition of getting shit-faced on Christmas Eve, downing obscene amounts of Red Stripe whilst catching up with friends from school; or buying loads of Christmas presents for myself - but having all of us, under one roof, at the same time, enjoying a sumptuous meal and great conversation, made me realise just how lucky I am.  

♫ Nathan Haines – ‘Wonderful Thing’

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I can see Jesus on your forehead.

Black parents will feed their children all kinds of bullshit in order to make them go to church, and every Christmas, they seem to out-do themselves.

Like a sullen six year old, the entire run-up to the festive period feels like you’ve been grounded. No treats. No favours. No lifts. But relentless ear-bashing.

But being in the clutches of my strict parents (read father), the post-war bullying tactics that he was subjected to as a child, have been dutifully passed down to me.

“If you don’t go to church, you will go to hell and the entire family will judge you.”

No they won’t.

“If you don’t go to church, I will never pray for you and you will not become a newspaper editor.”

Whatever Dad.

*Raising his voice* “Ah, what is wrong with you? Don’t you value your life? You bastard!”

And so the cycle continues.

“I’ll have what ever you’ve had love.”

Giving the old man too much sophisticated back chat has made him question whether he needs to call Brother Gilbert, my Dad’s preacher friend, to perform an exorcism. Too many hangovers, illegal substances, cynicism and westernisation has meant that I no longer have the same affinity with the higher power that I once did. Isn’t Jesus supposed to save all?

Just before Christmas, Brother Gilbert dutifully trooped down to my parents’ house in the Shires to pray for us. After locking myself in the bathroom with a packet of Party Rings, I was summoned to say hello to Gilbert.

Within seconds, he had a hold of my hand, began dabbing ointment onto my forehead and reciting Genesis, for which I had to repeat. This went on for over an hour. Call and response, call and response.  

Then bizarrely, my old man has a bit of a spiritual moment. He got into it a little bit too much. Suddenly, Brother Gilbert screeches: “I CAN SEE HIM!! LOOK! HIM! I CAN SEE HIM!”

See what?

“JESUS!”

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So there I am, staring at my Dad’s big, black, bald head, with Jesus apparently looking right back at me.

Next year I’m spending Christmas with white folk.  

♫ James Mason – Sweet Power

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Blame it on the Black Time™…

Better late than never right? Happy New Year and all that jazz, here’s to a January of conveniently forgetting about those ambitious resolutions and Heat magazine-inspired detox plans – dreamt up in earnest of course – and to a year full of renewed rewards and adventures.

My previous blog post should have been my final one… no more psycopathic rantings about the inability to grasp why all the rich, posh white kids (WITH ZERO  TALENT) snatch all the journo jobs. 

I got a job, on a newspaper off ’endz’, but it didn’t work out. I didn’t get sacked, but I left. It was the best thing. It would have only been an uphill struggle.  Life is too short to burden yourself with stress and anxiety.

There were a few ‘recruitment issues’ before I even stepped foot into the building, so it never felt right. Got a front page though, so I was Token-Black-Man-of-the-Highest for a few days. Well good for the ego.

I’m now, what you’d call *lowers voice* unemployed. Sad times. Though no job seekers for me. Nah, gotta pick myself up outta this dark, but strangely amusing time. Like Aaliyah once said: “Dust yourself off and try again.”

So, where were we?





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